Today, I made space for me.
Its no surprise of a thing to do, but it is something that I am (again) becoming intentional about.
I raised up out of my bed with a mental task list and handled my daily cares. I began to clean, happily-turned on some music and enjoyed my own company.
I docked my iphone and played Miley Cyrus, Whitney Houston, Gospel, Reggae-danced a little, created a workout playlist and began to again, dance.
I began to notice that my workout (inspired by the Reggae music) was a mix of dance styles I once participated in. YES, I was/am a dancer. I lack rhythm sometimes, but I enjoy the art of it all (lol). I once said: “If it was not my obligation to be an educator, I probably would have take dance a little more seriously.”
Going back to this workout- the combination of styles were ballet, African dance, praise dancing, interpretive dance, and a little twerk.
Today, I DANCED.
My mind began to do its own tricks-you know- it began to create thoughts of GREATNESS! I was feeling creative! I was planning and mapping out creative efforts and collaborations in my mind because I not only danced; but I created mental space- and allowed myself to be FREE!
I don’t and did not have to worry about work, gathering my students, and transporting them here and there! I did not have to take a phone call or meeting on this day. I was not weighed down by any obligation other than to “be,” just BE!
DANCING- brought me creative space I didnt know that I needed.
I finished cleaning-changing the linen on the bed, sweeping the floors, lighting candles, changing the scent of my wax melts; and then I sat. I paid a bill and then I renewed my library card-YES, my library card.
I had been putting off this renewal because “I hadnt had the time to go.” On this day, I had the time to get on the web, call the library to get my pin number, share laughter with the guy from the circulation desk-and Finally, the reason for it all: to gain access to the “Libby” system. The Libby System is an app that allows one to read e-books and audiobooks 24/7. I don’t have to worry about late fees anymore-this being the reason I have to renew my library card.
I immediatley downloaded a book that I had purchased-but again- not having the time to read, I can now listen to “Becoming” by Michelle Obama.
I ecstatically began to read/listen to it. Then, I began to check out other titles of books I have been wanting to read, but haven’t been able to sit long enough to do: Ta’Nehsi Coates’ book “Between the World & Me- “White Rage: the Unspoken Truth of Our Racial Divide by Carol Anderson-and soon “Uncomfortable Conversations with a Black Man” by Emmanuel Acho.
Because I danced- I was able to sit in my kitchen at my 3pc pub style table that I found on accident when searching high and low for a washer and dryer set. I haven’t sat at this table to enjoy eating in awhile. So, I sat and listened to our former LOTUS read her own book to me because I took the time to DANCE!
I get to write and share my thoughts with you all for this same reason!
Your form of relaxation and self-care may look entirely different from mine and I am cool with that.
I am writing this to you in order to say this: RELAX. Steal that moment of quiet and EMRACE it. Let that quiet moment be louder than the kids running through the house. Let it be louder than your agenda/calendar.
Allow yourself to breathe deeply and exhale loudly; and if a few tears decide to join you, so what! Let them fall and call them your comfort friends for the moment because right now, its the hug you didn’t know you needed.
I leave you with this thought: “I’m glad in God, far happier than you would ever guess-happy that you are again showing such strong concern for me. I’ve learned by now to be quite content whatever my circumstances. I’m just as happy with little as with much, with much as little.
I’ve found the recipe for being happy whether full or hungry, hands full or empty. Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the one who makes me who I can (Philippians 4:10-11;13-14 MSG).
“Keep Praying, Keep Pressing, and Stand Tall”